afortunat:

UGHH
Something personal.

Warning you guys, if you don’t want to hear an emotional entry, then move along.

So..it’s been a bit over a 2 1/2 months since my ex and I broke up. A 5 year relationship gone. I’ve come to realize that I was so dependent to him and that through my time apart from him, I would basically have to learn to live life independently. 

It’s been tough. like really tough. I definitely put up a front when i’m at work and school but they honestly don’t know how I’m feeling. To be honest, I think I may be falling back into a depressive state and I’m scared. If you guys think I’m being dramatic, that’s totally understandable but believe me when I say that it’s been the roughest 2 1/2 months of my life. Adjustment is something that I’ve been striving for and have yet to achieve. 

I seriously don’t know what to do. I seriously don’t. Only time will tell right? I just want to feel stable. ughhhh fuck.